The world is yours Grasshopper...

One way I deal with stresses and other such life ups and downs is to create… Either through imagery or by the written word. I closed down my old blog as that person doesn’t really exist any more. I mean everything that has happened to me as Phillip has made me the person that I am as a whole and that will not change very much if at all but I move on with true ideals of who I am, how I want to explore my imagery and how I wish to live my life as Sarah. My parents gave me names when I was born… I am keeping those names but dropping the one I really didn’t like but in the end I am the person who most matters to me and I am just fine with that   

Life experiences make you who you are… even as a carrot.

Today there is snow and freezing rain so I am not akin to going anywhere and in fact I feel quite depressed or down and I must turn to writing and other art forms including music.. As anyone knows who has followed me in my life and been there as part of it I was diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria and am adjusting my life to fit with where I feel I need to be. Of the people I have “come out” to there were some who just didn’t understand and with the way society is I don’t blame them for their lack of understanding. If they ask… I will try to answer as best that I can but one thing that everyone should know is that I am doing this for myself.

I have often said to people that in life you must take care of yourself first if you are going to be of any good to anyone else.  Health, contentment among other things and general well being should be a personal priority before you can do anything for others in your life. I accept myself for who I am and that was the first step to re-aligning my life to be where I would like to be. I am well aware that this is not going to be an easy road and I will be travelling along it by myself from time to time but it is a path I must take for my own physical and spiritual health and life. There will be ups and downs… hills to climb and stumbling blocks along the way but a journey I must make.

The demon that once was....

Today is one of those days where I feel at the bottom of a pile of manure somewhere… it is a feeling I have had before and I do have many things I can draw on to bring myself back up again spiritually. Over all I am fine and when I look at my life in general I do find moments where this kind of downfall could have been detrimental to my health if not my life. I do not find dishonour in ending it all as some have done but I have also not found a reason as some seem to think they have… I take each moment, find those things that mildly amuse me if even for a few minutes and draw on that positive energy to begin the climb back up.

It could be a bit weather related too, I know I have a full day with work tomorrow, then the salon after work and coffee with an amazing friend after that. Somewhere in there I will have a bite to eat and my laundry can wait another day. This afternoon has been filled with a few images, fighting Nazi soldiers, a nap and a senseless trip to the market. It pretty much reminded me I should have stayed home in the first place but I needed a spot of fresh air. I have a life to live and while I finally came to terms with how I wanted to do that not that long ago, I know I will enjoy it as best as I can.

Nothing wrong with a little fun...

I am an individual, a person who has found herself hiding in the closet of a man we all know. I was kept there as “he” had no idea what to do. One day the closet door was opened and all I heard were these words…

“You are free, the world can finally be yours…”