What an amazing and very
liberating weekend. Laura, Sam and I gathered up our stuff, packed some food
and went to the beach at the north end of Diefenbaker Lake.
What some will know as Danielson Provincial park. The intent in this trip was
to go see a part of Saskatchewan that Laura had yet to experience as well as to spend
a day in the sun (and shade) and just enjoy the sand and the water. After all,
this lake had more than 500 miles of shoreline to enjoy.
I wanted to go and was
hesitant in my selection of clothing. Last year on a beach at Chitek Lake
north of Spiritwood I wore a tank top and shorts. This year I wore a bikini and
a mesh top which was soon removed. After sunscreen was applied, especially to
the inked areas. I lay on the beach just in my triangle top bikini and enjoy
the sun’s warmth. I would wander down to the water as well and enjoyed the
freedom. I did have many thoughts in the back of my mind but soon decided that
I was here, close to nude as I could be and that is the way it would be.
I did converse with an elder
first nations woman who was there with her grandchildren and felt accepted and
comfortable. It was a most liberating and amazing feeling to experience. I was
virtually on the edge of tears. I did need to get out of the sun for a bit so
wandered up to the grassy area and meditated under the shade of a spruce tree.
Birds were chirping, a Robin landed nearby and found a for morsels of food.
This was a step I needed to
do for me alone and I am glad I did. When we got back to the car and another
peaceful grassy area we sat down to have some lunch and enjoy each other. Same
was running about and tried to catch a bird but Laura and I both knew it would
never happen. I did ask Laura if she would photograph me in my bikini laying on
the grass and she seemed most happy to. I tried a few positions on my own but
let her call the shots as she was the photographer after all.
Sometime later I took a look
at what Laura had captured and how she edited them. One stuck out in my mind
the most and I felt an emotional wave run through my body. As I looked through
the images and in a moment of time, I felt the woman I had become emerge even
further from the fortress that surrounded her. A major hurdle in my life had
been overcome and I am Sarah!
Wow..you look amazing..an very nice tattoos you have.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much.
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